How do I really feel.... and what can I do about it?..... from here on out...

Here is the truth on how I feel about where I am at right now... work and personal (school) schedule as they are... even knowing that they will be changing soon.. but not soon enough!

Physical well-being- Right now, today, I can only give myself a "5". I'm not getting nearly enough sleep, and not only am not eating as I know I should be right now, but am not eating enough. There doesn't seem to be a specific reason for why I am at this place right now; just know that I am. I am also not getting enough activity beside what I do at work. Except for a bit of gardening, I am just so tired, it's not getting done.
Goals are to eat more of the good things that I love but instead of more volume at once which I have an aversion to, but more frequent small meals. Similarly a different and better way to move has to open itself up to me. The same old same old, just doesn't do it. After a day of climbing and lifting this 62 year old body is tired. Yet, on the other hand, that "nervous" energy is still there as the remnant fro work, and the urge to move it there.
The first order of business is to get through my thyroid level "crash". For whatever reason, the levels are still not where they should be. That should rev up my totally stalled metabolism giving me more energy and "zest".
To achieve my goals for physical well-being, the first thing to do is prepare my meals at home, and remember to take them with me and not leave it on the kitchen counter. Then take those few minutes every few hours to eat something- should help with appetite and stop mindles munching. To be more active I need to "schedule" myself some time to get outside and garden, mow the lawn or go walking and check out the neighbors gardens. In addition, get my dvd player hooked up and borrow some dvd's and try out different ways to move.

Spiritual well-being- Right now, today, I give myself a "7". It would have been an "8" had I not fallen asleep after the overnight and made it down to church. Am feeling pretty positive about the direction I am moving in, even though there are things I question right now. I believe that there are some things that I am not going to be able to have answers for.
Goals include listening to what my "inner self" is really telling me, think about my responses, and take control of my actions.
To that end, I am practicing "what would you do "if"" and reviewing in my mind how I have reacted to the stresses of work and daily life, whether good stress or bad. I am also working on taking out minimum 15 minutes per day of quiet and silent time- no radio, tv, nothing. I have started on my own to de-clutter my life, not just doing to "do".

Psychological well-being- Right now, today, I give myself an "8". It may not be an "8" tomorrow, but I am close most of the time anymore. It's been hard trying to make sense of things going on in my life (because of the effect they have on my children and their children).
My goal is to accept those things that are going to happen whether I worry needlessly about them or not, and to do what I can to assist others to cope with them. Right now, it is the serious illness (cancer) of my childrens' father. I can't make him well, but I can do what I can to accept what is happening to him, and be a source of comfort for my children and granddaughter. My therapist told me just last week, that he believes that I have found my "calling" and to here him tell me that, was so important to me. He said in all the years he has known me, he has never heard me speak so passionately about anything.
To achieve my goals, I am doing what seems to be a "answer to everything" for me- go out and garden. When my hands are in the soil, the balance of life shows itself, and I realize that I don't have the power to control anything but my own actions. To that end, doing that, will not only give me a more positive life, but will reflect outwards. s.