First, I want to say that this week is so much better than last~ the cat is still so-so with the litter box, but I have decided to try and pay more attention to him and if that doesn't work~ have him taxidermed and just place him where I want him. Just kidding of course, but I can think it though.
My daughter has managed to get a sinus infection, a throat infection and something with her ears- leave it to her to do it well, but she is going on vacation Monday for the week, so she and her husband and little girl will have a much needed break. When they come back, it will be in time for her fortieth birthday/Madigans first ballet recital on the first!! I can't wait and am so excited. My friend who is a floral designer and I (I used to be, but am allergic to flowers) are going to create something awesome in pinks for her! I am pretty much sure that I will end up in tears- Ame was in HER first dance recital at 5 on the same stage.
So, now to the weeks' issue at hand..... me, who can remember my drivers license number, license plate, social security and bonus card numbers couldn't remember the words to repeat for anything! I tried it to the point of frustration a few different times and then gave up! Did anyone else have that problem?
The Integral Assessment was another thing. I already know that my Biological Flourishing is on the back burner until school is done later in the year. I am trying to eat better, but I also know that wiht all the nutrition that I have learned growing up and all that has been taught in my classes, that I need to not only try to do better but really DO better. I am still not eating enough. My thyroid levels have crashed for an unknown reason, and we are still working on getting them where they need to be. I have started adding meditation/mindful reflection to my life and although I love it, I am still not doing it every day. Physically I know I am not doing enough, but haven't found what it is that I am willing to do.
The area that I believe I have made the most progress in is psychospiritually. I have always had a deep faith, but it has been made even stronger and I find that I am wanting to do what I can to help others lead better healthier lives.
Interpersonally I am moving along... I have never had any problem doing and wanting to freely for my children and now my grandchildren, but my sister is another issue. She is a fount of negativity and censures anything I do or want. If I date out of my race, and I have, that is wrong and against GOD, when I want back to school, it was stupid and ridiculous for someone my age- I will owe lots of money and never get a job. Meanwhile she is having a relationship with a man who married someone else while she was seeing him, but that is ok. I find that a bit more difficult to be be supportive of, even though I believe it is not my job to judge her or anyone else- it is between her and her CREATOR. Even though I have been much more accepting of others, I am not out there doing anything in my community at this time. Work is enough to deal with. Which takes me to Worldly Flourishing. To be honest, I know I am doing much better with this one. Although the company has slashed hours leaving me no time to get everything expected (by me and by management) done, and as a result deprived my customers of the customer service they are used to from me, I am not letting the job get to me as I had. Everything was taken peronally, but I am working hard to take it for what it is. People trying to do their jobs the best they know how.
A bad day or week is just that. In my 62 years, 8 months, 4 days and 14 hours a bad day or week is nothing. They will be forgotten just as bad YEARS have been. I remember what was good, not the bad. I read something once, but don't know where and I have it posted in my kitchen:
Yesterday is history
Tomorrow is a mystery
Today is a Gift............
That's why they call it the PRESENT.
susan
Susan,
ReplyDeleteThank you for your positive remarks to my blog. I can't believe you tried to memorize the sentences! I held the book and was reading them and my mind was still wandering. It will be interesting to see if it was easy for others to do the exercise for ten minutes.
It sounds like your sister may be insecure and jealous of you and reacts to you in a negative manner. Do you think this could be the case? It is unfortunate she is not supportive of you - it is never to late to learn, love, or contribute to society.
I love the quote - my pastor said it during one of his sermons. It is a great reminder to enjoy each day. Have a great weekend!
Cynthia
Thank you Cynthia!
DeleteI am not sure what her problem is! She has been very judgmental for years- I think she turned in to my mother the way she had been before she became ill. Either way, it hurts to not be able to talk to her about school and what's going on. My younger sister who I raised until I left supports what I am doing- even though she is not sure I will be able to find a job. She is an RN BSN HHC (Holistic Health Counselor) and didn't start out until she turned 40.
I thought that exercise said to close your eyes and repeat the phrases- so that's what I was going to do! or not.
What are you taking next term? Or are you done?
susan
Hi Susan,
ReplyDeleteA very detailed and enlightening post! You are definitely a woman that seems to know what she wants and doesn't care what others may think. I think it is very beneficial to meditate (especially when there are areas in our life that so need calmness. As you read with my blogt his week, my OCD ends to ruffle my feathers a bit and I can use all the calmness and tranquility I can get!
I am happy to hear you have incorporated meditation into your health and wellness prescription. I have found it to be very beneficial in my life and will no doubt continue to practice this flourishing exercise long after this class is over. I would like to maintain this in my life as I do anything that makes me feel good and better about myself!
Have a wonderful week!
Hi Angie-
DeleteSometimes I think I know where and what I want, and other times, I feel like I am totally in the dark. Knowing where I want to go after Kaplan is the big thing. It is probably not the time to go looking for a job, but if I always waited for the best time to do anything, I would be childless and who knows where. Although i don't often try to impress anyone, I do takes matters to heart when a customer freaks out on me. I have been really working hard on that one, with help and support from my friends there. Today was a test- lots of grumpy people and plenty for me to do. It was like they woke up this morning, not having seen a calendar or newspaper in weeks and it was "oh no! today is Memorial Day- I have to have a picnic- what shall we do? Oh, we will go to Giant and then complain when they are out of something that they should have KNOWN to save for me. SO, I will complain and be nasty to everyone I see who works there"!!!!and a lot of them did. But I made it! Hope you had a nice Memorial Day! liz
Hello Susan,
ReplyDeleteI use affirmations all the time so this one was really easy for me. I was able to say the words and just feel them and go with it. As I stated in my blog post I was really surprised at the results. For some reason it opened up feelings and brought back some painful memories of the past. I guess because inside I was suffering from the event and had never had closure.
Once I had done this exercise and moved onto the assessment, forgiveness suddenly seemed to be the most important thing to consider. How can I flourish when I am holding onto such negativity. Susan, you are so true about school and the stress and responsibilities almost feeling as though it could prevent us from flourishing, but I have learned so much about taking time to work on myself that I think I am closer to making headway here than before.
I really like the quote you posted at the end. It really is important to remember this and live by it. Thank you for sharing! -Audrey