First off, I have to say, that my inspiration and "hero" is my grandmother. She is the wisest and most peaceful person that I know. I talk as if she is still here with me, because she is, guiding me every step of the way towards getting my life back together even though she left this earth in Jan 1974. I could see her so clearly, a tiny woman with long white hair that she braided and wrapped into a bun.
I was able to focus the white light bringing her energy and guidance to me wiht no problem. She is my mentor. After that, I started to have a bit of a problem. I have tried this more than once, but have a bit of trouble with the lights from one thing to another. I plan to keep at this one until I get it. It was most relaxing though with the sounds of the ocean. How she loved the NJ shore in the 50s when it was still so beautiful- Asbury Park/Ocean Grove, and of course the flutes are always so calming to me- think Carlos Nakai!
While I am not going to put down here that I am practicing my meditation skills every day- because I am not yet- I am really doing so much better. Even if it just means that I am taking out 5-10 minutes to breathe and center myself. This is so much more than I was doing before. It is helping to help me find that "place" where I can put on my grace and serenity and face the world again. I still hope to someday look inward and find the real me that we have read about. I can't even imagine doing that at this point! How will we know when we have "found" us? I hope that if and when I do, "I" am someone that I like and respect. I guess somewhere down deep- I have not totally exorcised that demon that made my mother constantly tell me that I had no looks and no peronality! What if that is what I find?
What does "one cannot lead another where one has not gone himself" mean to me? This is telling me that as a health and wellness professional, I need to "walk the walk and talk the talk". I don' t have to experience alcoholism, critical illness, cancer or HIV to work with a patient who has, but on the other hand, it is in my best interests to develop my optimum health to the best of my ability. How can I expect others to listen to me otherwise? I have to be giving it my best also. At this point, I am not. I am not exercising as I should, and my diet is not always the best, but I am moving in the right direction, and that is what I would be asking of my clients. One-step-at-a-time, just keep moving forward, and if you slip, get back up and dust yourself off, and start moving forward again.
I hope you all are having an uneventful (unless it's a GOOD event) week, and peace and blessings to you all.
susan
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ReplyDeleteThis is beauty post Susan! It is amazing how much you learn by reading other posts (blogs). I agree I do not practice meditation daily but, you better believe me when I tell you that, when I am stressed; meditation is the best way to calm me down. Great Blog!
It sounds like you had a good experience with this weeks meditation. I still need quite a bit of practice with it. I choose my grandmother as well, there is just something about grandparents, they are always so wise. It is great that you have such fond memories of her.
ReplyDeleteThank you Rosalyne and Ashley for your comments on my post. i can't begin to even explain my grandmother to anyone. Despite the fact that my grandfather was the town drunk and was dropped on the porch nightly, she maintained her calmness and inner peace, raising 5 children, never driving and relying on her inner core of strength. I am very proud that I come from a line of strong women and that my daughter is also one of us.susan
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